Tuesday, October 28, 2003ughh...atit lage euyy.....littleangel, 12:48 pm Tuesday, October 21, 2003kadang hari jadi demikian melelahkan, ibundaruang menujumu tiba-tiba saja terasa luas dan jauh ingin nanda ceritakan tentang sayap-sayap yang tak henti belajar terbang mencari setiap celah untuk memperpendek jarak mempersempit ruang ingin nanda ceritakan tentang wangi kelopak sepanjang jalan biru langit, hembus angin dan warna pucuk-pucuk hijau mengumpulkan keindahan dalam telapak untuk dibawa pulang ke pangkuan berharap bisa menghapus letih kening dan sudut mata bunda sesungguhnya tak jarang langkah nanda tersandung batu terhalang badai tapi bekal yang bunda sampirkan sejak dulu selalu bisa menghantar nanda ke seberang kadang kabut sama sekali nyaris tak tertembus...ibunda perjuangan melewatinya tiba-tiba saja kehilangan tenaga ingin nanda ceritakan tentang ketakutan-ketakutan dan mimpi buruk menjelang tengah malam tentang kegamangan dan keraguan setiap kali jembatan dan pintu menghadang di depan mata tapi percayalah bekal yang bunda titipkan di bahu selalu bisa mengisi kekosongan, menguatkan dan menegakkan kembali wajah nanda seperti pesan bunda, nanda belajar dari rumput yang tegar untuk selalu tumbuh nanda belajar dari tetes hujan di atas batu yang tawakal berikhtiar tak pernah mudah...ibunda, tak pernah jika sesekali nanda berhenti nanda ingin bunda tahu bukan tuk menyerah tapi menerjemah hikmah dan menelaah diri sebelum berjalan lagi tak pernah mudah, ibunda, memang tak pernah tapi nanda tak gentar sebab cinta dan doa bunda terbukti jadi energi tak berbatas yang tak pernah kehabisan cahaya dalam setiap langkah nanda i love you Mom...love you so much littleangel, 3:46 pm Over and over I look in your eyes you are all I desire you have captured me I want to hold you I want to be close to you I never want to let go I wish that this night would never end I need to know Could I have this kiss for a lifetime Could I look into your eyes Could I have this night to share this night together Could I hold you close beside me Could I hold you for all time Could I could I have this kiss forever Could I could I have this kiss forever, forever Over and over I've dreamed of this night Now you're here by my side You are next to me I want to hold you and touch you taste you And make you want no one but me I wish that this kiss could never end oh baby please I don't want any night to go by Without you by my side I just want all my days Spent being next to you Lived for just loving you And baby, oh by the way Could I hold you for a lifetime Could I look into your eyes Could I have this night to share this night together Could I hold you close beside me Could I hold you for all time Could I have this kiss forever Could I could I have this kiss forever, forever littleangel, 9:05 am Sunday, October 12, 2003That I Would Be Goodthat I would be good even if I did nothing that I would be good even if I got the thumbs down that I would be good if I got and stayed sick that I would be good even if I gained ten pounds that I would be fine even if I went bankrupt that I would be good if I lost my hair and my youth that I would be great if I was no longer queen that I would be grand if I was not all knowing that I would be loved even when I numb myself that I would be good even when I am overwhelmed that I would be loved even when I was fuming that I would be good even if I was clingy that I would be good even if I lost sanity that I would be good whether with or without you >>yeah.... that i would be good whether with or without you.... littleangel, 6:29 pm |